Now all we really need to worry about is some ongoing home repairs...
Honestly, our home has almost always needed repairs. We have water damage in our ceiling in both our bedroom and the laundry room, warped tile in the master bathroom and now: water damage caused by our very out of date air conditioner.
Ideally, we'd like to not spend as much money as possible when it comes to repairing this place, for obvious reasons. Another reason is that, we're hoping to (EVENTUALLY;;) move out of our current home and maybe to a new one in the neighborhood. I think we'd be able to sell this one, and maybe use some of that to put a down payment on a new one. For the record, our homes out here are quite affordable, and we currently live in a manufactured/modular home community (example below V V V)
So, it's not completely unrealistic, I think! Although, take that with a grain of salt, coming from me; a person with dyscalculia aka not a very great grasp of numerical comprehension... I mean, I'd like to assume things may work out, but paying for a mortgage might not be within our immediate horizon. (THAT much, I can comprehend;;)
Anyways! I'm hoping the AC repair won't try to push a new unit on us;; We really can't swing it for a whole new one, and as previously stated- we'd like to not put as much work into this home as possible, if we can avoid it.
It's really interesting... a few years ago, I never would've imagined I'd even have to think about home repair, upkeep and general homemaking. I'm just a very...immature person. It's very difficult for me to visualize or view myself as an actual ADULT now... it just keeps feeling like I recently graduated high school and I have no idea what I'm doing, haha;;
Then suddenly I look around and think "Ah, right. I'm in my 30s now...".
No one really prepares you for the kinds of random "adult" stuff you'll have to worry about when you get to this age- at least, *I* wasn't prepared, haha;;;
Sometimes I look up from the little things I do throughout the day and realize that over and over: "I'm really not a kid anymore...I can't just pretend that things
will work out *magically* without doing some work of my own about it". I've never been very responsible, either. I can't quite tell if it's just from how I was
raised, or my mental illnesses, or disabilities or just... I'm not sure
I try really hard not to use my disabilities as an excuse for poor adulthood comprehension, but it's also just not that simple to put into words either. There's still so much about the world, myself and others that I'm trying to understand- in my own way, paced the way I can keep up with. But even then, it's very difficult for me to just... BE AWARE. Of my surroundings, or my sense of self.
Ah, well. There's a lot going through my head, but writing out so far has been a bit cathardic. I know I won't be keeping this thing daily...most likely, but I'm going to try to use it when I have brain spillage that I just need to get out some way.
Please wish us luck with our smelly little house repairs as we figure things out as best as we can ;w;/